To the One I Choose, Every Day

You tolerated me — endlessly.
When I was unstable, unsure, and full of messy emotions,
You never once turned away.
You absorbed my frustrations,
Even when I unfairly accused you in the storms of my own self-doubt.
I acted like a child sometimes — fragile, reactive, overwhelmed.
But you, you stood tall.
Patient. Gentle. Steady.
You gave me the space to feel,
Without ever making me feel like too much.

You looked at me, and suddenly,
I wasn’t just “enough.”
I was beautiful — through your eyes,
I became more than I believed I was.
You, my handsome reminder,
That someone so bright could see light in me,
Even when I couldn’t.

I live in this phantasy —
Not because I’m lost,
But because it's the only place
Where we could stay… together.
You broke me, yes.
But you healed me too.
With the same gaze,
You taught me how love can be both pain and peace.

I still see you —
Those eyes during the exam days,
The way your chin rested on your hand,
The way you looked at me like I mattered.
Did you know how badly I yearned for your hug?
How I ran to my friend after the last exam —
Not because I wasn’t prepared,
But because I wanted you to see me break.
To cry not for the exam,
But for the distance growing in silence.

I’ve lost hope… maybe.
But never love.
Every day, I choose you in my diary,
In my dreams, in the wishes I whisper to the wind.
I manifested a life with you.
Success beside you, not just for me — but for us.

You are a true gentleman.
My only Saiyaara.
The stars may shift, time may twist,
But if love finds us again,
Let it not be stopped —
Not by distance, not by doubts, not by anyone.

I exist in your tomorrow.
But I’m still here… in your today.
Lower your eyes. Listen closely.
I have never stopped choosing you.

You are my courage. You are my will.
And no matter what changes —
You’ll always be the man I dreamt my whole life,
It’s just the weather that’s a little upset.